Sunday, December 22, 2013

Is Your Light Shining This Christmas Season?

Last evening, Scott took me to see the lights in Elizabethton’s (TN) Golf Course Acres. For several years now, the residents line their streets with white bags, filled with sand and a candle. It was beautiful . . . and it was incredibly enjoyable seeing the luminaries with the top down on the Mustang since it was like 70 degrees?!?!


This morning during my quiet time I was reflecting back to the beauty of those lit candles . . . the soft glow, giving a beautiful effect along the many streets. It also took me back years ago when I did this at my parents’ house. For those of you who know where I grew up, and lived until March of this year, mom and dad’s driveway was fairly long. So one Christmas I decided to line the driveway with the white paper bags, filled with sand and a votive candle. I remember the candle had to be placed just right in the center as to not catch the bag on fire and to ensure the brightest glow. I also remember lighting them was no easy task since there were so many. But when I was finished, it was a lovely outdoor lighting display. By the way, I only did this once :)

Just as I was diligent in lighting those votives, I believe our lives are to be like shining lights for God, reflecting his glory throughout the world. In Psalms 18:28 the Bible reads “For thou wilt light my candle, the Lord my God will enlighten my darkness”. How are we letting our lights show?

Recently during one of our live Facebook chats, we talked about “Blessed to be a Blessing”. As I’m writing, I realize how nicely this blog ties in with that theme, as well.  Many ways we talked about being a blessing to others, like going by to visit someone, if only for a few minutes, or picking up the phone to call or text someone, just to let you know you’re thinking of them, is what makes our lights glow. During this particular Facebook chat, we discussed how many times we think we have to do big things, which cost money, in order to be a blessing to someone. But you know what? If that’s the case we are missing many opportunities to let our light shine. Quit looking for big ways to shine your light. Instead, take advantage of the opportunities God has already provided us in order for our lights to glow.

Last night when we arrived home, I quickly noticed one of our candles in the kitchen window was not glowing, despite all the lights that remained on. This morning I thought about that burnt out candle and how quickly people often notice when our lights are not shining. Has your candle become dim because of the hustle and bustle of the Christmas season? Better yet, how often do people notice when they are? Have you snipped your wick and positioned it in the center of your life to ensure the brightest glow possible?

It is my prayer I not only let my candles, pick icicles and Christmas lights shine upon the earth this time of year but my light will shine today, tomorrow and throughout the year . . . through my life.

Saturday, December 21, 2013

How are you keeping Christ in Christmas this year?



With all the hustle and bustle of the Christmas season, how are you keeping Christ in Christmas this year?

One thing I have noticed is more people saying “Merry Christmas”. Have you? I know I have been very mindful to wish my acquaintances Merry Christmas. This is certainly one way to keep Christ in Christmas but how are other ways we can do this?

Well, our live Facebook chat this past week was on about this very thing. We had several participants during the live chat, and Scott and I were certainly blessed to read their thoughts so I want to share some of those with you:

·        Remembering not just at the season but every day that life is about "presence" not just presents. People need "us" not necessarily things. Doing unto others as you would have them do to you.

·        You know we live in the Bible belt and we're more sheltered here vs the rest of the Nation. In Wilmington, NC it is more liberal and alternative. They're more about coexisting... The Bible says where two or more are gathered along with God if there are 25 people who believe, will you spare our land... we have to be the people asking God to spare our land and acknowledge Christ...

·        I was at a lady's devotional recently and one of the ladies mentioned she had created an angel tree (I think it was an angel tree) in addition to her Christmas tree to keep Christ in the forefront during the Christmas season since it is Christ's birthday.

·        I'm keeping Christ in Christmas by supporting my family with love, support, and understanding. I'm also keeping Christ in Christmas by keeping faith in the Lord's plan. Even though I don't understand certain moments in my life, it is His guidance that keeps me on track as to where I need to be.

·        I've noticed more people are saying Merry Christmas. Also, if they say happy holidays, I always smile and say Merry Christmas back to them. I've also seen more Christmas wishes on hours of operation at banks etc. We always read about the birth of Christ on Christmas Eve as a family before bed, and my daughter gets 3 gifts from Santa in honor of the 3 kings who took gifts to baby Jesus. (A great idea someone told me about long ago and we've always done that.)

·        I am happy to see so many Christians finally speaking up more and standing up more for God's ways and not just being quiet about it.

·        It’s best for all of us to stand up for Christ and speak for Him. I know He's extremely capable to fight His own battles but I'd rather stand in the gap for Him as opposed to ignoring Him and experiencing His wrath...

·        I am very glad that people are trying to keep Christ in Christmas, but I more concerned that we should keep Christ in our life every day. Some people forget the poor and lonely after Christmas.

·        Be Proud to say Merry Christmas with Love not just brave and saying it with sarcasm...

·        I believe people have made an effort to say Merry Christmas more. I always enjoy adopting children from the angel tree through work and helping families through church. I sponsored a world vision child for the first time this year, 5 year old Darwin from Honduras and received a Christmas card from him today. Made my day!!! So blessed to be able to do that for him!

·        Maybe this controversy now going on with Phil Robertson of Duck Dynasty this will help bring more awareness to how we should be more Christ like and stand up and speak up for our beliefs and what the Bible says. The Facebook chatter is pretty heavy about slamming the TV station that suspended him for him speaking his religious beliefs. Maybe this will help us Christians be stronger also and stand up for Christ. This could be a very good start of helping others stand up for Christ every day of their lives not just a Christmas.

·        Where my husband works they took an angel from the tree and we bought some things for an 11 year old boy. What a good feeling to reach out.

·        It was awesome the company that adopted all the leftover angels- 170 of them!!! Two years in a row! I pray that God blesses them and their business to prosper.

·        I know a family who participated in a drive-through live Nativity scene. They took their grandson and explained what each scene was about to try to instill in him, at a young age, what Christmas really is about.

·        We know a married couple who are friends of ours and I shared with them that we've set a small monetary amount on us and they aren't doing much if anything for themselves. Rather, they are giving to others with Love... This is true Christ-Mas Love....

·        I heard a cool thing this week- a man said that he raised his family to always read the Christmas story before opening presents. His grown son was in the service in Germany and the hours are different than here but he stayed up late so he could call in on Christmas Day and hear the reading of the Christmas story with his family. I loved that and makes me want to start that as a tradition this year.

·        I think it starts with family and home. I think it's more difficult for folks that grow up in a non-Christian family. It's easy to tell children things but traditions are forever and that's why we need to incorporate more Christian traditions in our everyday lives all year- not just at Christmas.

·        We can live every day, 365 as though it's Christmas Eve/Day... This makes for the best counselling sessions....

·        I think we best keep Christ in Christmas when we share our time with others, especially those with no family, and those in assisted living and nursing home facilities. It may not seem much but just being a little part of someone's life for a few minutes can mean a lot. Reading the Christmas Story to someone who cannot do it for themselves is keeping Christ in Christmas. Sharing with those in need always represents Christ. Susan. I will always remember your Daddy giving of his talents and resources. All the time. Going out of his way to do so. Have a Blessed Christmas

·        And we all certainly need to remember those who have no family . . . not only during this Christmas season but throughout the year . . .

·        Struggled with this - finally I really try to focus on "what would Jesus do" try to be more patient - kinder - to everyone I come in contact with and make the effort to carry it throughout the year - also as stated  . . .  reaching out to those that have no family here locally –

·        Through example is the best way to let God's light shine. Little things such as common courtesy, doing a kindness for the sake of being kind and not for the pat on the back. Let Christ come out in your actions, your tone of voice.

·        Do not like the commercial aspect of Christmas - as an only child - adopted by my aunt and uncle - it was never about the "stuff" - - so it completely overwhelms me sometimes - it much more joyful to realize what the season is really about and to put it into practice - brings me more joy than any presents

·        Living for Christmas is a process. It needs to build daily for the final climax for the recognition of Christ birthday. Just like the wise men traveled for days. I want to make my journey memorable by who I've touched on my pathway....

·        I myself have been practicing Pay it Forward this year and it’s made me feel more in spirit and close to God than any other Christmas when I was running around gift purchasing and trying to impress everyone! It's not about that! At all! It's when the gift comes from the heart! And being kind to others and speaking for the greater good of God, not saying it to bother those who don't believe in Christ in Christmas! I say Merry Christmas to maybe touch and inspire another! It's about doing small gestures for strangers! Making friends and sharing in love and laughter! That's how I'm trying to keep Christ in Christmas this year! God Bless all those that are!

·        Keeping Christ in Christmas doing things for others singing carols baking sharing and Rang the bell for couple hours for food bank with my daddy

·        Being Christ like at Christmas - it's the little things - a smile to the overworked cashier - the server at McDonalds :)

·        Was talking to a friend this morning who was telling me she had gone shopping at the JC Mall yet couldn't find anything for the ones she was buying for which made her realize Christmas not about having to run out and spend money on buying presents . . .

·        I love volunteering at local health care it’s such a blessing we took them shopping today. That’s Christmas

·        Christ like - means looking around at your neighbors - offer a helping hand - anything - sometimes the people closest to us need assistance but don't want to impose

·        I think walking the Walk at Christmas time is the best way to keep Christ at Christmastime! He needs to be the center of everything! Give a gift to someone (whether it costs a lot or not) to someone from the heart! Give because you want them to feel loved not because you "have too" be the kind of person you want your children to marry!

·        Christmas is the celebration of Christ birth but it is a series of events that leads us to the day we can reach His table showing the gifts we've delivered this year in His name....

I hope you enjoyed reading all the posts we received. Are there other ways we can keep Christ in Christmas? If so, please leave a comment!

Merry Christmas,
Scott, Susan & Austin

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Only to Susan - Chapter 22

Had I not already published “Only to Susan” it would have 22 chapters after yesterday, not 21. And since you asked . . .

As many of you know, we were scheduled to fly to the Cancer Treatment Center of America (CTCA) – Chicago yesterday morning for my third chemo treatment, in addition to several other appointments. Our flight was scheduled for 7:55 a.m. out of Knoxville.

Sunday night, Scott decided to set his alarm on his phone for 4 a.m. He likes to get up early, take his time, enjoy a cup of coffee, watch the news, etc. Me? I like to get up, hop in the shower and go! But to ensure we did not oversleep, I reluctantly agreed to set my alarm for 4 a.m., too, just in case his did not go off. I know. Highly unlikely, but . . .

After my alarm went off, as I never heard his, my eyes surpassingly popped wide open – I wasn’t groggy at all! Of course, Scott was already downstairs doing what he does. He, much like his “sister-in-law” Debbie cannot sleep the night before traveling so he woke up at 1:45 a.m. but continued to try to go back to sleep until 3:30 a.m. before calling it a night . . . or a morning :)

After making the bed, I began getting my things together for our one night stay. Once Scott reappeared, with my cup of hot coffee . . . God, I love him, he too began getting his things together as we only had to pack for an overnight trip = one carry on. Since I woke up early, we were ahead of schedule. He told me he’d like to stop by Wal-Mart and get a mock turtleneck (more on this later). I thought, “Really????” But . . . whatever . . .

As we left the house before o’dark thirty in a down pour of rain, we made our way to Wal-Mart, which is a short distance from our house. Scott asked if I was going in, and I politely said, “nooo-oh”. I was confident he would not find what he was looking for and return quickly and empty handed. To my surprise, he did return rather quickly and with his purchase in hand . . . I thought “wow” and continued to pray he would NOT wear it.

After leaving Wal-Mart, my husband treated me to a country ham biscuit with extra ham . . . hey, I need to live a little . . .  before officially beginning our trek to the airport. With a biscuit in one hand, I managed to check our flight status on my United Airlines app and was somewhat surprised and disappointed to discover our flight had been delayed four hours and six minutes. I thought, well, if this is true, we should still get there in time for my chemo at 4 p.m. (CST).

Thank goodness, the closer we got to Knoxville the less it was raining. My courteous husband dropped me off at the terminal then parked the car. As I darted through the automatic doors, the first thing I did was check the monitor and sure enough my app was right on. Our 7:55 a.m. flight was now scheduled for an estimated 12:01 p.m. departure.

Since I had already checked us in using my handy-dandy app, I just had to wait for my prince charming to return after parking the car so we could make our way through security. For the first time . . . ever . . . we both were selected to go through pre-screening, meaning, we just walked through the detector with our hats, coats and shoes on, our lap tops in bags, etc. The reason I share this is it never fails when we fly Scott ALWAYS gets to go through pre-screening, but me? I ALWAYS have to go through the “regular” way, removing almost everything. We always joke about it, plus, it’s become almost like a competition between us although the gentleman or lady at the first security check point decides who wins the competition since he or she points the direction for us to go.

After making our way through security, we stopped for our ritual Starbucks coffee before cautiously proceeding to our gate just hoping we’d discover our flight was on time but nope . . . no such luck. We found a few open seats by the windows with plug-ins so we could charge up all of our electronics in preparation for the wait. Oh! I almost forgot . . . Scott’s drink of choice at Starbucks is a dry Hazelnut Cappuccino with only two squirts of syrup, not four, and three-fourths foam, plus an extra shot of espresso. While I waited in line “just” to see what our options were to get to Chicago earlier, he returned his drink because it was too milky. As was his second. So, this time I returned it, and a young lady made it since the young gentleman was 0 for 2. Well, she failed this barista’s expectation too (Scott use to own a coffee shop), but by this time we learned our flight to Chicago was cancelled, so we had other things to deal with besides a cappuccino . . .

Immediately, a mile long line formed at the gate counter. Fortunately, the CTCA has their own travel/scheduling department so I made a phone call to them. Unfortunately, our options were limited. We were not going to be able to get to Chicago until later that evening or even possibly the Tuesday. Ironically, while trying to ensure the CTCA could reschedule my appointments for Tuesday and Wednesday I received a call from another travel rep as he saw our flight was cancelled and was offering his assistance to reschedule our flight and appointments.

Since they were able to reschedule my appointments for Tuesday and Wednesday, we elected to drive to Nashville to catch a 6:44 p.m. (CST) direct flight last evening to Chicago. Sound crazy? Well, it was our best option at the time. There was also a 2:07 p.m. (CST) direct flight, which appeared to be full, but we knew if we got to Nashville in time we might be able to get standby on that one.

As we packed it up in Knoxville and made our way to the parking garage, someone who will remain anonymous could not remember where he parked his car. This someone knew we were on the right level, but where did he park the car? By the way, this is very not like this certain someone. As my teeth were chattering, this someone finally spotted a truck he recognized, which parked near him, just before my nose became frozen while touring level two of the McGhee Tyson Airport. Shortly thereafter, this particular someone had me safe and warm in the confines of his car.

I don’t think I’ve mentioned this but all the while we laughed and found humor in most of what I have shared. I was a little worried about driving all the way to Nashville and the flight being cancelled there, but after we both said a prayer, we were Nashville bound.

Sunday, I made a “turn” (if you’ve read my book you’ll understand) of homemade Chex party mix, thinking it would make for a great snack while on the plane yesterday morning, but we pretty much devoured it on our way to Nashville instead . . . who would’ve thought? The drive went by pretty quickly. Of course, Scott had the Mustang traveling at the speed of light . . . just kidding. However, I did spot a Tusculum College alumni license plate about five, maybe 10 minutes from the airport exit on I-40. I’m not sure, but it looked like Roger Abramson as we flew by in the HOV lane. If it was you Roger, sorry I didn’t wave!

The last time I was at the Nashville airport I was young . . . really young. For many summers, my parents and I vacationed at Opryland. As part of our vacation, my dad would bring us to the airport and I’d sit on the hood of his car watching the airplanes take off and come in. Unlike a lot of children today, I didn’t fly until I was a young adult so simply watching the airplanes at a young age was mesmerizing to me.

Once again, Scott dropped me off at the terminal so I could make my way to the ticket counter in hopes we could obtain standby status on the 2:07 flight. Scott joined me with our carry-on bag while I was in conversation with the attendant. She put us on standby while assuring me we were still confirmed for the 6:44 flight.

We made our way to security and guess what . . . you guessed it! Scott was sent through pre-screening but not me! After a good laugh, he helped me get my books, coat, scarf and hat back on as he had the lap top and carry-on bag with him. I still just don’t get that but anyway . . .

I told Scott I wanted to ensure the lady told me correctly as I did not want to lose our seats on the 6:44 p.m. flight so I was going to check in at the gate counter. While he stepped to the restroom, I learned the 2:07 flight was delayed until 4 p.m., but yes  . . .  even though we’re on standby, our seats were guaranteed on the 6:44 p.m. flight. In the meantime, an announcement was made, “Susan Teague, please return to security . . . Susan Teague please return to security”. I have never heard my name announced in an airport before. Of all things? I left my phone. But I checked my tubs? My wonderful husband took my ID and returned to security for me. I had not left it in a tub but on the bench where we were putting my boots back on.  Thank God they found it . . .

Since we knew we had plenty of time, we decided to grab some lunch at a nearby Mexican restaurant. Shortly after we sat down, I noticed Scott had a sleeve showing under his sweater. After taking a double-take and trying hard to observe his “mock turtleneck”, which he put on at the Knoxville airport parking garage, I asked him if it was one piece. He laughed and said, “Yes”.  I lowered my head, with my hands on my cap and began laughing almost hysterically. Remember Cousin Eddie in Christmas Vacation? Remember the dark colored “dickey” he was wearing under his white/cream colored sweater? Well, when Scott told me this morning he wanted a “mock turtleneck” a “dickey” is what I had in mind! So I confessed and told him the story. He was not sure if he could forgive me for having such little confidence in his choice of fashion, but boy we got a big laugh out of it!

Following our almuerzo (lunch), we made our way back to the gate area to learn the 2:07 flight was now delayed until 6:35, nine minutes prior to our 6:44 flight . . . . . . hmmmmmmmm. Since we have plenty of time, my gracious husband made a special trip back to the car to retrieve my favorite pink/glittery hat, which many of you have seen. I actually was wearing it this morning but while at the Knoxville airport, where Scott bought it for me several weeks ago, I purchased a black one just like it as it complimented my black and pink attire much better :)  By the way, on his way back through security? You guessed it! He was directed through pre-screening. Unbelievable . . .

Not to my surprise, our 6:44 p.m. was delayed an hour and one minute, then an hour and 16 minutes then finally an hour and 46 minutes before pulling into F9, our gate. After eating cena (dinner) at the same Mexican restaurant, but at different table, working a word search and walking the halls for exercise, it was finally time to grab our bags and board the plane. Albeit, it was about 8:50 p.m. (CTS), we were finally on our way to Chicago. And get this . . . remember the 2:07 flight we were on standby on? It had yet to arrive but was scheduled to land about an hour after we took off.

While on our way to Chicago, I slept the entire flight. I barely remember taking off, but I certainly remember landing. As I woke up, I was literally sweating. I thought, “Oh my God . . . am I sick? Do I have a fever?” Should I have a fever I could not receive my chemo. Then I looked at Scott, and he was sweating, too! I quickly realized it was the temperature on the plane. I was relieved I didn’t have a fever, and was actually thankful when I stepped off the plane to feel the frigid temperatures on my cheeks . . . it was an immediate cool down! Our driver was waiting for us so we bundled up with our hats, coats, gloves and ear muffs, or as Scott likes to refer to them, our 180s’s, before walking outside for a short, brisk walk to the limo. Once again, I slept all the way to our hotel.

Upon arriving at our hotel, the trees and shrubs were a welcoming site as they were brilliantly lit up for Christmas. As we walked into the lobby, we both took a deep breath. It is now around midnight (CST). Scott looked at me with his warm smile and said, “We’re here, and we’re safe”. And he was right. After living out my fictional Chapter 22 since about 3:30 a.m., we arrived in our room. While Scott was enjoying a bowl of Cornflakes and the Golf Channel, I was enjoying watching vision of sugar plums dance in my head.

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Let it Snow! Let it Snow! Let it Snow!

Are there times in your life that make you feel like a kid again? Well, one of those times for me, in addition to going to Disney World, decorating sugar cookies and watching Andy Griffith reruns, just to name a few, is the first annual forecast of snow.

Last night, after we finished watching a movie, I looked out the window to nothing but a wet street in front of the house. Disappointed, I crawled back into my warm bed, which I’m so thankful for. Around 3:30 a.m., I woke up, and nothing would do me but to peer through the blinds, looking in our back yard through sleepy, squinted eyes to nothing more than glistening remnants of yesterday’s rain. But, when I woke up around 7 a.m.? I felt the same excitement that many of you felt – SNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW! It was and is beautiful. Enough to cover the ground, but the roads are clear . . . gosh, I just sounded like my mother . . .
 

Shortly after I woke up this morning, I found myself snuggled in bed between Scott and Austin, oh, and Flatts, too, (one of our black cats – he was our cat . . . Scott brought Kattie to the family, a long-haired black cat). With the blinds open, a picture frame was created for a picture perfect first snowfall of the season, and thanks to Scott, I had coffee in hand. What a moment of reflection . . . reflecting on being blessed? Yes, I truly am.
About thirty minutes later, Scott decides this is the perfect time to put seed and fertilizer on our new yard. Yes . . . I also thought he was kidding! He wasn’t kidding at all, informing me how perfect the timing was so he could see where it was landing on the grass. So after a couple of layers of clothing, his coat and insulated boots, which he repeatedly told me kept his feet dry and warm (as to not catch a cold), and a cap, out he went . . .  a man on a mission. My last words to him? No. Not I love you, but “It’s a good thing you’re going out this early. Hopefully our neighbors are still in bed and won’t see you!”


 
But what a great pre-Thanksgiving day! Our first snow, our first snow in our new home and our first snow as a family, and of course, Austin's first snow ball . . . with all my child-like giddiness to boot!

 
Maybe I’m a little selfish wanting all the inches of snow in the forecast, but I’m not one of the 43 million people traveling this Thanksgiving holiday. 43 million! That’s amazing to me . . . but I heard it on the Today Show this morning, so, it has to be true, right? Oh wait . . . that’s the internet :)
The spreading of grass seed and fertilizer? Check. Now, finishing touches on the house have commenced so hopefully we can flip the switch on our Christmas lights tomorrow evening!

And, to close, you have to love the holidays and the snow when friends come around . . . all the way from the beach in SC! My “big sis” Debbie brought her daughter-in-law and granddaughter Danielle and Grace, to see us this morning. Danielle and Grace are here for Thanksgiving and I know Debbie and Mike-Mike could not be happier. And surprisingly, Santa already left a gift under the tree . . . for Grace . . . and of course, it had to be something Minnie Mouse :)  

 
So wherever you are or wherever you’ll be enjoying this holiday, from our family to yours, from a snow-covered yard to the sands on the beach, may the good things in life be yours in abundance this Thanksgiving and throughout the year.

Sunday, November 24, 2013

We're Half Way There!

Since this is the month of Thanksgiving, I must begin by saying how thankful I am to be feeling better so I can share with you my recent update.

Last Sunday, November 17, we spent much of our time at the Knoxville airport as delays continued to be issued for our flight to Chicago, which was scheduled for 12:15 p.m. But, surprisingly, Scott and I had the opportunity to visit and catch up with a friend of ours, Lisa. Lisa is a flight attendant with American Airlines and was catching a ride to work on our flight via American Eagle.


I had noticed while watching the weather that morning there was severe weather, including tornadoes, in the Chicago area. Every time a delay or ground stop was issued I couldn’t help but think what was going on . . . were there actual tornadoes? Were houses and structures being destroyed? Were lives being taken?
Once we finally boarded around 3:30 p.m. we still remained on the ground until almost 5:30 p.m., but to our knowledge, no one on the plane was disgruntled about the situation. It was an enjoyable flight, the flight attendant was great, and we were so glad to find out we did not have to take a 2.5 hour scenic route as previously announced. But as we were landing, the winds were still fierce as we felt the plane topple to the left right before we hit the runway. Scott’s hand is probably still sore today as I nearly squeezed it off.
 
 
We had plans to attend a chamber concert and dinner with our friends Steve and Claudette Sunday evening, but we obviously didn’t make it in time. I was very disappointed as we were looking so forward to it. But we were finally in Chicago . . . and we were safe . . . but hungry.
Thankfully, there was a KFC across the street from our hotel. So we braved the high winds and made our way for some take out to enjoy in the room with some Sunday night football.
Monday morning began with breakfast at the Cancer Treatment Center followed by some blood work . . . yay :( Then we had a follow up appointment with our plastic surgeon. He is very pleased with how well I continue to heal from my surgery and he added more fluids to my expanders, giving me more definition. Although somewhat uncomfortable from the additional fluids, we made our way to our next appointment with my oncologist. Oh, I almost forgot! Scott and I were sitting in the hallway after breakfast getting some paperwork in order and here came our chaplain. She grabbed my head and prayed right there. I love to hear her pray . . .
Back to my oncologist . . . he is too pleased with how well I’m doing. Some of my blood work was high, but considering I’m undergoing chemo, they were ok. He did want to schedule an appointment with Quality of Life for my next visit so they could further evaluate my blood work as it relates to my “quality of life”. The one thing he added to my premeds for chemo is Claritin . . . yes, Claritin, the allergy pill. Apparently, they have seen results in minimizing the flu-like body, bone aches by using Claritin. Since that was one of my more difficult side effects last time, I was excited to know I could take something to help.
In addition to the body, bone aches, losing my hair and having a metallic, yuck-like taste in my mouth, I’m now experiencing some neuropathy in my fingers. They advised this could happen, but it’s ok . . . it could be so much worse.
We also met with our dietician (I wish we could just bring her home and let her cook for us), as well as the naturopathic doctor. Ironically, this was right before lunch :) It is amazing to me the difference it makes in how you prepare your food, the types of food you should eat as it relates to the side affects you are experiencing during chemo . . . Scott could have spent the day with our dietician, picking her brain :)

Following lunch, it was time to have my PICC line put in. I was more at ease this time having gone through the procedure the last time. Once again, I felt the prick of the shot that numbed my arm and within a few minutes the procedure was complete. And no tears were shed . . . and yes, I was wearing my glitter eye shadow as a reminder I’m not going to let cancer dull my sparkle so I certainly didn’t want it smeared all over my face :)
Then we made our way to infusion where we would spend the next four hours. After my husband was a little persistent :), we had a private room with a restroom and a beautiful view of the water. Our nurse was wonderful. Ironically, Scott and I both napped most of the time, but we did wake up in time to order and enjoy a delicious dinner. Following chemo, I realized we’re half way there! Two down, two to go! Reminded me of Bon Jovi's "Livin on a Prayer" song :)
 

The next day, I received my neulasta shot, which helps create new white blood cells while I’m taking chemo. Following my shot, we found ourselves on the way back to the airport. The highlight of the day was enjoying some French fries and part of Scott’s burger at the Chicago Bar and Grill in our concourse . . . the same place we’ve eaten at almost every time we fly American. It has become a tradition. I don’t think our dietician would have approved but . . . :)
We arrived home late Tuesday evening. I was feeling well . . . and again Wednesday morning, but by midday on Wednesday, it hit. I was in the bed almost 24/7 until yesterday, Saturday. Maybe the Claritin did help as I often wondered how badly I’d hurt if I wasn’t taking it. But again, I’m thankful I’ve not been sick on my stomach. I can handle the body, bone aches.
Once more, I’m thankful I felt like updating my blog this morning. I am also thankful for those of you who “paddled” for me last week when I couldn’t :) It’s been a rough week, but I realize it could have been worse. I still don’t feel well, but I know this is only temporary.
Speaking of paddling, if you don’t, I encourage you to join our weekly Facebook chats on my Facebook page usually on Thursday evenings. Our last chat was “Paddle, Paddle, Paddle”. Unfortunately, we were not able to host one this past week as I was not feeling well, and Scott had to tend to me, but we hope to host one this coming week, maybe Tuesday evening, since this Thursday is Thanksgiving. Scott and I continue to be blessed to be a blessing, and we want to share all we can with others.

Psalm 136:3

Thursday, November 14, 2013

Blessed to be a Blessing


Scott and I hosted our first live Facebook chat last Thursday, entitled “Blessed to be a Blessing”. As you know, our lives as a married couple have evolved around my breast cancer, the most traumatic experience in my life. But it has been amazing the many blessings we have received and the lives we have been able to touch, even in a small way, while on this journey. To that end, we have been blessed to be a blessing.

 
One of my favorite songs is “Blessings” by Laura Story. The first time I heard it I wanted to rewind it on the radio. It was very inspiring and thought provoking for me. Maybe like you, I was raised seeing all the good in this world, not the bad. As I became older, it was somewhat difficult for me to understand why hardship and heartache are too a part of our lives. But as I studied God’s word, I realized God also blesses us during these times, as well as through the absence of unanswered prayers.

During our chat last week, I was reminded when God allows something into my life, for better or worse, I try to use it to bring glory to God. Certainly, it is much easier to use the good things in life, but I have come to realize when I am able to use a difficult situation in my life it often brings greater blessings for me, in addition to those around me.

And how do we reach out to others? In addition to my blog, and posts on my social media outlets, we decided to host a live Facebook chat after we participated in one several weeks ago with the Cancer Treatment Center. I have to say . . .  I can’t imagine anyone who participated received more of a blessing than we did last week. Following the chat, we prayed . . . Scott prayed then I prayed. We were both very touched by those who participated in the chat . . . their words of hope and support were very encouraging to us, but wait! That was our job . . . but then we realized how blessed to be a blessing we are.

In II Corinthians 9:8-12 the Bible tells us “And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that always having all sufficiency in everything you may have an abundance for every good deed; as it is written, “He scattered abroad, He gave to the poor, His righteousness endures forever.’ Now He who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will supply and multiply your seed for sowing and increase the harvest of your righteousness; you will be enriched in everything for all liability, which through us is producing thanksgiving to God. For the ministry of this service is not only fully supplying the needs of the saints, but is also overflowing through many thanksgivings to God.”

God has blessed me so much. In doing so, He does not expect me to hoard what He has given to me. According to Ecclesiastes, I am to appreciate my blessings. But, the main reason for which God blesses me is so He can use me as a channel in order to be a blessing to others.

I hope you will join us this evening, Thursday, November 14, 2013, on my Facebook page from 7 to 8 p.m. (EST) for our next live chat: Paddle, Paddle, Paddle. While we often cannot control what happens in our lives, we can control if we choose to “paddle, paddle, paddle’ or through in the anchor.

“In the boat of life, do you have an oar in hand, paddling through the rough times, or do you have the anchor in hand, ready to throw it overboard and give up? But before you do, is there someone in your boat with a paddle who you know and trust to ensure when you can’t paddle any more will help you overcome your rough times?” Scott Teague.

“Don’t give up, victory may be right around the corner.” Gal. 6:9

Hope to chat with you this evening, and remember, God blesses us beyond our wildest dreams because He loves us, and He wants us to be a blessing to others. How are you going to be a blessing to someone today?

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Thank You Veterans

Today has been a day of reflection for me . . . but in a different way. Instead of my thoughts being centered on the color of pink, I found my thoughts being centered on the red, white and blue.

Today is Veteran’s Day, a day when we pay tribute to all the men and women who have served our country.

Being the daughter of a Marine, I was raised with much pride and respect for our freedom, which my father taught me was not free. Being a proud American, wearing and displaying the red, white and blue was a family tradition. I was also taught to stand still during the playing of the National Anthem with my eyes on the flag and my hand on my heart. To this day, I continue that practice no matter what the person beside me, in front of me or behind me does.


Many of you have heard me say the first day I met my husband, Scott Teague, and found out he was a man of God and a Marine, that was all I needed to know . . . and yes, although it may come across in a jokingly matter, I was very serious. My father was the first man I fell in love with and my husband will be the last. Somewhat flippantly, I’ve told Scott being a Marine was ironically not on “my list” of characteristics I was looking for in my husband, but it certainly should have been. What a bonus I received, huh . . . :)

Earlier today Scott was one of 35 veterans recognized at a Veterans Day program at South Greene High School. Thank God, I felt well enough to attend. I was honored to sit by Scott’s side and among other men and women who have served or are serving our country. As I sat there, on the gym floor, I also found myself in the midst of where I spent four years cheering on the South Greene Rebels, as well as where my father spent many years as the PA announcer, which he loved . . . and took his job very seriously :) When prayer was no longer permitted, he retired. It is amazing how the paths in our life often bring us back to the same places yet for different purposes.


Do you know the history of Veterans Day? I have heard it before, but as a part of their program, a few students shared the history. To that end, I wanted to take this opportunity to remind you why we observe and honor our Veterans on this day:

World War I officially ended when the Treaty of Versailles was signed on June 28, 1919. However, fighting ceased seven months earlier when an armistice, otherwise known as a temporary end of hostilities, between the Allied nations and Germany went into effect on the 11th hour of the 11th day of the 11th month. For that reason, November 11, 1918 is regarded as the end of the “war to end all wars”.

Therefore, it all began on November 11, 1919. Woodrow Wilson proclaimed this day as Armistice Day in the United States. While declaring this day as a holiday, Wilson highlighted the fact this day was observed to honor “the heroism of those who died in the country’s service”. Eventually, an act passed on May 13 1938, making provisions for declaring November 11th every year a legal holiday.

By 1954, the US had participated in two major wars: WWII and the Korean War, wherein many American soldiers lost their lives. Taking a note of this, the Veterans Affairs urged Congress to amend the Act of 1938 and replace the word Armistice with Veterans, making this day Veterans Day.

On June 1, 1954, Congress amended this act, remaining this day from Armistice Day to “Veterans Day”. Since then, this day has been observed as Veterans Day in the United States.

Though it was initially decided the 11th day of the 11th month of every year will be observed as Veterans Day, in 1971, it was shifted to the fourth Monday of October, which was October 25, 1971. This change, however, resulted in a great deal of confusion, and eventually it was shifted back to November 11 in 1978.

In conclusion, I extend my sincere gratitude to all Veterans, our heroes, who dedicated and sacrificed their lives for our country, especially to my father and husband. But you know something? We should acknowledge and pay tribute to our Veterans every day, not just one day of the year. To that end, I challenge you, as I will challenge myself, to say thank you to a Veteran when you see someone in uniform . . . turn our admiration into words. Being a daughter and wife of a Marine, I will close with this quote by President Ronald Reagan “Some people live an entire lifetime and wonder if they have ever made a difference in the world, but the Marines don’t have that problem”.

Friday, November 1, 2013

It's a Date!


Since our honeymoon, the only place we have been, for the most part, is Chicago, spending most of our time at the Cancer Treatment Center of America. However, this past Wednesday, my incredibly thoughtful, sweet husband changed that.

He had the day off. As he was leaving to take Austin to school he told me to get up and get dressed  . . . we were going for a ride. Although I didn’t feel great, I was excited. Unfortunately, before we ever got out of the driveway, I had a side effect from the chemo hit me. This had been going on for several days, but I realized it's part of it. I prayed it would subside long enough for us enjoy our ride . . . yet, destination? Unknown :)

We drove to Newport. First stop? Cracker Barrel. As soon as we pulled into the parking lot my side effect hit again . . . ugh. I did not want to go home, but if it was going to continue I’m not sure we had a choice. I had taken something for it and Scott encouraged me to take some more. And I did. By the way, our breakfast was sooooo good. I had not had much of an appetite, but this hit the spot!

After we had eaten and were meandering around the store, giving ample time to ensure my side effect wasn’t going to hit again, a lady walked up to me, wearing pink, and said, “How long”? I replied, “I was diagnosed the end of July”. She was diagnosed a couple of years ago, has lymphedema and cannot use her right arm, and she is continuing treatments. Her name was Marie. We had a very enjoyable conversation and parted ways, assuring one another we’d keep the other one in prayer. And I will.

As we departed Cracker Barrel, Scott got on I-40 so I thought maybe we were headed to Asheville. But in a few miles, he got off the interstate, and I decided then we were Gatlinburg bound. It was a beautiful day but a little cool to put the top down just yet, but I knew in time, my pink scarf would be blowing in the wind.

When we drove into Gatlinburg, we both had a craving for a Starbucks coffee. After looking on both sides of the road from one end of the main strip to the other, then Googling, did you know there is not a Starbucks in Gatlinburg? Sounds like a franchise opportunity to me! Nonetheless, there were several coffee shops street side so we parked as close as we could to one. When Scott explained to the parking attendant we were only going to get a coffee, he let us park for $5 instead of $8 :)

As we walked from the parking lot to the street, I quickly realized how difficult an easy task, like walking, had become. But then again, I had been wiped out in bed most of the last four, five days, but with Scott on my arm, I’d make it! We had identified the coffee shop of choice as we were driving by, but before we arrived at that one, we passed a Mayfield store that served coffees. Sounded good to me . . . and it was. Then there was the cutest shop next door. Between Scott and me we found a few things :) I even found a seat on the bench outside while he continued shopping. As he joined me on the bench, we noticed one of the airbrush/t-shirt shops a few stores down. Scott suggested we get a few t-shirts made, noting “Susan’s Circle of Courage”. And we did. The gentleman had to free hand it and design it. So we only paid for one to ensure it met our satisfaction.

While we waited, Scott decided to take our shopping back to the car. I sat on a bench outside the Ole Smoky Mountain Candy Factory. And “I thought” I had lost my will power . . . I didn’t even shadow the door :) Several minutes before, Scott noticed a gentleman with a Marines’ cap on so as we passed he responded “Semper Fi”. The gentleman and his wife were celebrating their anniversary and live near Camp Lejeune in Jacksonville, NC but are originally from the Nashville area. As I was sitting on the bench, the retired Marine joined me and we chatted until Scott returned while his wife shopped in the candy store.

Following our conversation with the Marine, I hung on Scott’s arm as we made our way back to the t-shirt shop. He shared with me he told the parking attendant we obviously decided to do more than just grab a cup of coffee. Scott offered to pay him the additional $3. And he took it . . . I was a little surprised he took it, but as I told Scott, it always pays to be honest.

The gentleman was finishing up my t-shirt as we approached the shop. Since he wasn’t finished, once again, I made my way to the bench in front of the store, anxiously awaiting the final product. While I had been sitting there, I had noticed a young girl, pretty blonde, walk by me a few times, to the trash can. It appeared she worked at one of those kiosks that give away tickets and offers various promotions. This time, though, she walked over and sat beside me. She said, “I don’t know you, but God told me to pray for you . . . to pray for full restoration of your body, and I wanted you to know I did.” I was so touched . . . I told her my name was Susan. I extended my sincere appreciation for her prayers and for sharing it with me before she returned to her work station.

In the meantime, my t-shirt met our expectation so Scott ordered one for him and one for Austin. As he was paying, I overheard him say, “We’ll pick them up on our way back”. On our way back? Where are we going now? Scott pulled me back to the car as I really getting tired by this point. He put the top down. Stopped at KFC on the way out of town and told me we were going to have picnic on top of Ole Smoky . . . neither one of us had not been to the top of the mountain in forever. It was a beautiful drive. Of course, the higher the altitude, the cooler it became. We stopped at a few scenic overlooks. The first one we were swarmed in ladybugs . . . ugh! But managed to smile and pose for a picture.

The next overlook was the rock wall where everybody signs their name. Scott took the pink ribbon off his car and traced it on a stone, then I signed it. In the midst of all that, a lady came over and hugged me. She smiled and told me she was a two-year survivor. We had a delightful chat before they left, headed the rest of the way up the mountain.
After a few pictures on the stone wall, we too made our way to the top. With KFC, my jacket and a blanket in tow, we had our picnic, among several other passer-byers, on top of Ole Smoky. A lady stopped to tell me she had four daughters, one of which is a huge advocate for breast cancer as she mentioned one in four women are afflicted with this, but so far, none of them had been diagnosed. However, according to the American Cancer Society, “the chance of a woman having invasive breast cancer during her life is one in eight”.

Following an enjoyable picnic and meeting some Alabama fans who were enjoying Bojangles a few blocks, literally, down from us, we made our way back to the car and headed down the mountain. As we arrived back in Gatlinburg, we pulled in the same parking lot where we had parked earlier. Scott told the same parking attendant we were just picking up some shirts so he didn’t charge us to park this time :)
I managed to make my way back to the shop on Scott’s arm. The shirts looked great. Then on our way back to the car, Scott just had to have some Karmel Korn, and I just had to have some ice cream before making our journey home.

What a wonderful day we had together. Did I feel great? No. But there were enough deterrents, mainly Scott, the fresh air, the beauty of the mountains, so I didn’t focus on my discomfort and pain.

As we were nearing Newport, Scott took a detour on the Foothills Parkway, and as tired as I was, I was so glad he did. It was absolutely gorgeous. The colors were far more vibrant than on the mountain, but it is at a much lower elevation.

So, if we have to wait two more months before we have another date, then so be it. It was nice to be together and not be traveling to Chicago for a change, which we always make the best of :) And it was an opportunity for me to mentally refocus and enjoy and appreciate God’s masterpiece, His canvas . . . not just in the Smokies but in my life, as well.

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Lung Cancer Awareness

Emily Walsh, Community Outreach Director for the Mesothelioma Cancer Alliance, asked me to post this on my blog. Mesothelioma Awareness Day just passed last month and their campaign was a huge success. With Lung Cancer Awareness month coming up in a few days, Emily was contacting bloggers, like myself, in the cancer community to ask for help in continuing to spread awareness. Fortunately, because mesothelioma is a completely preventable cancer (caused only by asbestos exposure), knowing more about the disease and its risk factors truly does make a difference.

       
 
 
Also, for more information, please visit their web page: http://www.mesothelioma.com/.
 

October 29, 2013 - Don't Ever Underestimate the Power of Prayer


Last Thursday began the next step along our “Pathway to Recovery” as I began my first chemo treatment.  We did not meet anyone on our flight to Chicago this time, but when we arrived at the airport, we were in the same limo with a lady from Knoxville, who apparently was on our same flight. We had a very interesting conversation with her on our way to the Cancer Treatment Center of America (CTCA) – Chicago. She is a cancer survivor and was there for her checkup. I can’t wait to reconnect with her again.

Prior to my first appointment, we actually saw several members of our team of doctors in the hallways. Among them was our chaplain and the lady from Knoxville who we met on our return flight home the week before. Remember, she was the one who recognized Scott after seeing the WBIR clip of our pink pumpkins? She had completed her radiation, and ironically, we were both her patients. The chapel was just down the hall so our chaplain took us all in to pray, and pray she did. I love to hear her pray . . .

Many of you knew how apprehensive I was about this trip. I was dreading the insertion of the PICC line far more than the actual chemo. After our chaplain prayed, in addition to my many prayer warriors who were praying specifically for this anxiety, I felt the courage and peace I would need to see me through.

Now it was time for my day to begin. I had my blood work completed, our appointment with my oncologist, then it was time . . . it was time for the PICC line. All along I had told Scott he was going with me, and he too wanted to be right by my side. However, once we arrived for the appointment, the nurse told us he could not go in. I explained my fear of needles, IV’s, etc. so she asked me to change and would see what she could do. Upon her return, she politely told Scott there was no way he could be with me, but she would hold my hand. We were both disappointed, but I looked at Scott, right in those gorgeous blue eyes, and told him “I can do this . . . I’ll be ok.” He smiled as I left the room for the procedure.

Surprisingly, I walked into what appeared to be more like an operating room, not the room I had been in for my biopsy and ultrasound. I thought no wonder Scott couldn’t be in here. I quickly noticed we were all donning our hairnets, masks and gowns as I made my way on the table, with my left arm extended by my side. The nurse did exactly what she told Scott she would do. She held my right hand the entire time. I felt the sting of the needle when my arm was numbed and that was it. When they told me it was in, I could not believe it was over! I just wanted to shout praises to God for answering prayer. I fought back the tears as I was wearing my glitter eye shadow, because if I had cried, it would have been all over my face! Remember, I’m not letting cancer steal my sparkle :)

I walked back in the room where Scott was waiting as proud as a child who had just earned straight A’s, or ridden her bike for the first time without training wheels. I smiled and said, “I did it” . . . he was so proud of me.

We made our way up to infusion where I would receive my chemo. We were in a nice room with a chair that was heated and included a massage option. A few people who we knew came by to visit, including my oncologist, to ensure I survived the PICC line as she assured me I would, and Scott Jones, president and CEO. It was a pleasure to finally meet him. Following our enjoyable conversation with Mr. Jones, they brought us menus so we could order dinner. As we were finishing our dinner, which was very good by the way, we realized it was about time for my Skype presentation. This was an opportunity for me to share my personal story with some young ladies at Tennessee Tech University in support of Breast Cancer Awareness Month. It was actually pretty cool I was making this presentation during my first chemo treatment. Who would’ve thought?

Needless to say, those four hours of chemo went by quickly before we headed to the hotel. We were even able to see our favorite waitress Melissa and talk with her prior to calling it a night.

The next morning, we returned to the CTCA where I was scheduled to receive a shot to help produce more white blood cells while I’m on chemo. During lunch, I was able to participate in a live Facebook chat with my plastic surgeon and another patient about post-breast cancer reconstructive surgery. Before we knew it, it was time to head back to the airport.

We were in the limo with another couple. It was obvious the gentleman was tired as he rested most of the way to the airport so we didn’t engage in conversation with them, which is completely understandable. Sometimes you just want to rest on the way to the airport as opposed to conversing. As we were getting out of the limo, I told them to take care. As she replied, Scott asked her where they were from, recognizing her southern accent, and she said, “Tennessee”. He then questioned where in Tennessee, and she surprisingly said, “Greeneville”! Amazing . . . we hope to connect with them the next time we see them either locally or at the CTCA.

When we checked in at United, we learned there was a flight leaving in 30 minutes. The gentleman put us on standby. We made our way as quickly as a breast cancer patient with a husband who had knee surgery in March and a torn Achilles in May possibly could :) We got through security with ease then arrived at the gate as they were beginning to board. On the monitor, we were listed as one and two on standby among 10+ other names. I couldn’t help but think the gentleman at the ticket counter bumped us to the top of the list since we were apparently the last ones to arrive. Scott tried to talk to the lady who was calling the various groups to board, but she practically shunned him away. Once everyone was boarded, there was a checkmark placed by Scott’s name. Another gentleman was standing near us. He overheard Scott say to me, “Well, I’m not going without you” as she called his name to board. Rather disgruntled, she asked him where his bags were. He explained we were together, and that is what he was trying to explain to her minutes prior. The gentleman told me I could have his seat if needed so we could fly home together – an incredibly nice gesture. After she typed around on her keyboard, I was able to join Scott in flight after all. As we boarded the plane, our seat assignments were rows apart, yet there were two seats together in the first row. The flight attendant let us sit there. While we were getting settled, I looked up, and here came the gentleman who had offered to give up his seat for me. No good deed goes unnoticed, right? So . . . we were able to catch an earlier flight home, and it was so nice to arrive in Knoxville while there was still day light.

I could not believe how good I felt after chemo. I was able to keep my commitment and serve as the honorary captain at the Tusculum College football game on Saturday, but then about mid-day Saturday, I began to ache and feel tired. I literally was in bed until Monday morning. They explained this could happen as hard as they try to alleviate most side effects with pre-meds prior to the chemo treatment. Unfortunately, tiredness is not one of them. But thank God, I am feeling better.

We will return in three weeks for my second chemo treatment. At this time, we are scheduled to have an appointment with my plastic surgeon as he will insert more fluids into my expanders, and we will have a consultation with my oncologist prior to my infusion. But before we confirm our travel plans back to CTCA, I will have my blood levels checked locally to ensure everything is at the minimum required levels for the chemo treatment.

In closing, I was messaging with a friend this morning who too has cancer, and we were talking about the power of prayer . . . it gave me pause to think about how incredibly well this visit went, i.e. with the insertion of the PICC line, my chemo, but that’s God . . . no matter how big or how small our needs or burdens are or how they make us feel, we should always remember to take them to the Lord in prayer, surrendering them unto His plan and His timing . . . not ours . . .  

Mark 11:24