Also, for more information, please visit their web page: http://www.mesothelioma.com/.
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
Lung Cancer Awareness
Emily Walsh, Community Outreach Director for the Mesothelioma Cancer Alliance, asked me to post this on my blog. Mesothelioma Awareness Day just passed last month and their campaign was a huge success. With Lung Cancer Awareness month coming up in a few days, Emily was contacting bloggers, like myself, in the cancer community to ask for help in continuing to spread awareness. Fortunately, because mesothelioma is a completely preventable cancer (caused only by asbestos exposure), knowing more about the disease and its risk factors truly does make a difference.
October 29, 2013 - Don't Ever Underestimate the Power of Prayer
Last Thursday began the next step along our “Pathway to
Recovery” as I began my first chemo treatment.
We did not meet anyone on our flight to Chicago this time, but when we
arrived at the airport, we were in the same limo with a lady from Knoxville,
who apparently was on our same flight. We had a very interesting conversation
with her on our way to the Cancer Treatment Center of America (CTCA) – Chicago.
She is a cancer survivor and was there for her checkup. I can’t wait to
reconnect with her again.
Prior to my first appointment, we actually saw several
members of our team of doctors in the hallways. Among them was our chaplain and
the lady from Knoxville who we met on our return flight home the week before.
Remember, she was the one who recognized Scott after seeing the WBIR clip of
our pink pumpkins? She had completed her radiation, and ironically, we were
both her patients. The chapel was just down the hall so our chaplain took us
all in to pray, and pray she did. I love to hear her pray . . .
Many of you knew how apprehensive I was about this trip. I
was dreading the insertion of the PICC line far more than the actual chemo.
After our chaplain prayed, in addition to my many prayer warriors who were
praying specifically for this anxiety, I felt the courage and peace I would
need to see me through.
Now it was time for my day to begin. I had my blood work
completed, our appointment with my oncologist, then it was time . . . it was
time for the PICC line. All along I had told Scott he was going with me, and he
too wanted to be right by my side. However, once we arrived for the
appointment, the nurse told us he could not go in. I explained my fear of
needles, IV’s, etc. so she asked me to change and would see what she could do.
Upon her return, she politely told Scott there was no way he could be with me,
but she would hold my hand. We were both disappointed, but I looked at Scott,
right in those gorgeous blue eyes, and told him “I can do this . . . I’ll be
ok.” He smiled as I left the room for the procedure.
Surprisingly, I walked into what appeared to be more like an
operating room, not the room I had been in for my biopsy and ultrasound. I
thought no wonder Scott couldn’t be in here. I quickly noticed we were all
donning our hairnets, masks and gowns as I made my way on the table, with my
left arm extended by my side. The nurse did exactly what she told Scott she
would do. She held my right hand the entire time. I felt the sting of the
needle when my arm was numbed and that was it. When they told me it was in, I could
not believe it was over! I just wanted to shout praises to God for answering
prayer. I fought back the tears as I was wearing my glitter eye shadow, because
if I had cried, it would have been all over my face! Remember, I’m not letting
cancer steal my sparkle :)
I walked back in the room where Scott was waiting as proud
as a child who had just earned straight A’s, or ridden her bike for the first
time without training wheels. I smiled and said, “I did it” . . . he was so
proud of me.
We made our way up to infusion where I would receive my
chemo. We were in a nice room with a chair that was heated and included a
massage option. A few people who we knew came by to visit, including my
oncologist, to ensure I survived the PICC line as she assured me I would, and
Scott Jones, president and CEO. It was a pleasure to finally meet him. Following
our enjoyable conversation with Mr. Jones, they brought us menus so we could
order dinner. As we were finishing our dinner, which was very good by the way,
we realized it was about time for my Skype presentation. This was an
opportunity for me to share my personal story with some young ladies at
Tennessee Tech University in support of Breast Cancer Awareness Month. It was
actually pretty cool I was making this presentation during my first chemo
treatment. Who would’ve thought?
Needless to say, those four hours of chemo went by quickly
before we headed to the hotel. We were even able to see our favorite waitress
Melissa and talk with her prior to calling it a night.
The next morning, we returned to the CTCA where I was
scheduled to receive a shot to help produce more white blood cells while I’m on
chemo. During lunch, I was able to participate in a live Facebook chat with my
plastic surgeon and another patient about post-breast cancer reconstructive
surgery. Before we knew it, it was time to head back to the airport.
We were in the limo with another couple. It was obvious the
gentleman was tired as he rested most of the way to the airport so we didn’t
engage in conversation with them, which is completely understandable. Sometimes
you just want to rest on the way to the airport as opposed to conversing. As we
were getting out of the limo, I told them to take care. As she replied, Scott
asked her where they were from, recognizing her southern accent, and she said, “Tennessee”.
He then questioned where in Tennessee, and she surprisingly said, “Greeneville”!
Amazing . . . we hope to connect with them the next time we see them either
locally or at the CTCA.
When we checked in at United, we learned there was a flight
leaving in 30 minutes. The gentleman put us on standby. We made our way as
quickly as a breast cancer patient with a husband who had knee surgery in March
and a torn Achilles in May possibly could :) We got through security with ease
then arrived at the gate as they were beginning to board. On the monitor, we
were listed as one and two on standby among 10+ other names. I couldn’t help
but think the gentleman at the ticket counter bumped us to the top of the list
since we were apparently the last ones to arrive. Scott tried to talk to the
lady who was calling the various groups to board, but she practically shunned
him away. Once everyone was boarded, there was a checkmark placed by Scott’s
name. Another gentleman was standing near us. He overheard Scott say to me, “Well,
I’m not going without you” as she called his name to board. Rather disgruntled,
she asked him where his bags were. He explained we were together, and that is
what he was trying to explain to her minutes prior. The gentleman told me I
could have his seat if needed so we could fly home together – an incredibly
nice gesture. After she typed around on her keyboard, I was able to join Scott
in flight after all. As we boarded the plane, our seat assignments were rows
apart, yet there were two seats together in the first row. The flight attendant
let us sit there. While we were getting settled, I looked up, and here came the
gentleman who had offered to give up his seat for me. No good deed goes
unnoticed, right? So . . . we were able to catch an earlier flight home, and it
was so nice to arrive in Knoxville while there was still day light.
I could not believe how good I felt after chemo. I was able
to keep my commitment and serve as the honorary captain at the Tusculum College
football game on Saturday, but then about mid-day Saturday, I began to ache and
feel tired. I literally was in bed until Monday morning. They explained this
could happen as hard as they try to alleviate most side effects with pre-meds
prior to the chemo treatment. Unfortunately, tiredness is not one of them. But
thank God, I am feeling better.
We will return in three weeks for my second chemo treatment.
At this time, we are scheduled to have an appointment with my plastic surgeon as
he will insert more fluids into my expanders, and we will have a consultation
with my oncologist prior to my infusion. But before we confirm our travel plans
back to CTCA, I will have my blood levels checked locally to ensure everything
is at the minimum required levels for the chemo treatment.
In closing, I was messaging with a friend this morning who
too has cancer, and we were talking about the power of prayer . . . it gave me
pause to think about how incredibly well this visit went, i.e. with the
insertion of the PICC line, my chemo, but that’s God . . . no matter how big or
how small our needs or burdens are or how they make us feel, we should always
remember to take them to the Lord in prayer, surrendering them unto His plan
and His timing . . . not ours . . .
Mark 11:24
Pink Pumpkins for Breast Cancer Awareness Month - News 5 WCYB
In case you missed the news story WCBY TV 5 Bristol did on our "pink" pumpkins and Scott's effort to raise awareness during Breast Cancer Awareness Month, here is the link:
http://www.wcyb.com/news/pink-pumpkins-for-breast-cancer-awareness/-/14590844/22548788/-/46bqpwz/-/index.html
http://www.wcyb.com/news/pink-pumpkins-for-breast-cancer-awareness/-/14590844/22548788/-/46bqpwz/-/index.html
Halloween Display Supports Woman's Breast Cancer Battle - WBIR 10 News
In case you missed the segment WBIR 10 News in Knoxville did regarding our "pink" pumpkins and Scott's effort to raise awareness during Breast Cancer Awareness Month, here is the link:
http://www.wbir.com/story/news/local/hamblen-jefferson-cocke-greene/2013/10/11/womans-breast-cancer-battle-goes-to-halloween-display/2969739/
http://www.wbir.com/story/news/local/hamblen-jefferson-cocke-greene/2013/10/11/womans-breast-cancer-battle-goes-to-halloween-display/2969739/
Wednesday, October 23, 2013
October 23, 2013 - Galations 6:2
While writing my last post, I forgot to share a very special moment with you . . .
Last Tuesday, before we left the Cancer Treatment Center of America (CTCA) -
Chicago, I had an appointment with a physical therapist (PT). They have been taking measurements in order to monitor any swelling. Thank God I have not experienced any swelling as my doctors took a practical approach to reduce it prior to and after my surgeries and it obviously proved to be successful. The PT also wanted to check the mobility of my arms. I told her it was difficult to get my coat on my left arm. I could only get it 3/4 of the way on, then Scott or Austin would have to get it the rest of the way, over my shoulder. Her first question was "Do you own a cane?" I paused a moment, smiled, and said "Yes . . .yes I do". I did not tell her why, i.e. my stroke. I never thought I would need my black and orange cane, again, yet I knew exactly where it was. So, she left the room to get a cane. We she returned, she was showing me exercises I needed to do prior to my next surgery to ensure I regain full mobility. As she is giving me instructions while I'm completing the various exercises with the cane in hand, I stood there thinking . . .this time last year, I was using a cane to walk. A year later, I will use the same cane for exercises following a bilateral mastectomy and the beginning stage of reconstructive surgery. Amazing . . .
By the way, the PT was wearing a fitted cap on her head, but I could tell she was bald. I asked her as politely as I knew how if she also was a cancer patient. With a beautiful smile on her face, she told me no but her husband had cancer. I asked her how he was doing and maintaining her beautiful smile told me he passed away last year. He was diagnosed with a very rare form of cancer. She keeps her head shaved in his memory. A lump immediately formed in my throat, and my heart broke for her. She proceeded to tell me he too worked at the CTCA - Chicago . . . as a chaplain . . . Galations 6:2.
Anyone who has fought the battle of cancer knows how traumatic it can be, especially women who have fought breast cancer. Well, last night was one more hurdle along our "Pathway to Recovery".
Many of you know after we returned from the CTCA last week Scott encouraged me to be proactive and have my head shaved prior to starting chemo tomorrow. He felt this would empower me to be more proactive and stronger if I chose to not let chemo/cancer take my hair away from me . . . and I did . . . sounds like a good title of a book, huh? :)
We were sitting outside last evening, awaiting Jennifer's arrival, and Scott reminded me that I'm in charge of our "Pathway to Recovery", not the cancer. He told me, as he did from the beginning,"You've already defeated this . . . God's got this . . . you're just going through the process, creating a testimony and many blessings to share with others". He concluded by encouraging me to stay on the offense for the remainder of our pathway, not the defense. After this moment, I didn't think there was anything I couldn't do . . . then, the door bell rang . . .
My dear friend and hair stylist, Jennifer, came over after she finished at her shop. Keep in mind, she is a special friend, but I met her at the front door with mixed emotions. What I didn't know was she too approached the front door with mixed emotions.
Being the friend she is, she brought me a beautiful hat box, filled with a few hats. She especially surprised me with a black beret-like hat, which matched a hat she too had. She wanted to surprise me once this was over . . .you know, so we could look alike . . . at least for a moment :) But the surprise was too good to keep :)
We headed upstairs to the bathroom with Scott right by my side. He too was going to get his head shaved as he was not going to let me do this alone . . . Galations 6:2. So, I sat in the chair, with my back to the mirror. Jennifer told me she had never done this before (to a woman, of course). I hugged her and told her it would be ok. Scott cranked up some music, per our request, and it actually calmed our nerves a bit while Jennifer conjured up the strength she had been searching for to do this. But when the sound of the clippers turned on, it took all I had to fight back the tears until I could not hold them back any longer. They streamed down my face, but Scott was there to catch them, as well as my hair that was falling in my lap, on the floor . . . but I kept praying, knowing this is only temporary and just one more step along our "Pathway to Recovery".
When Jennifer finished, she got the black beret-like hats. She put mine on. Put hers on. Then I turned around. We looked cute and had fun posing for the camera, but I still dreaded seeing what was under my hat.
After we had some laughs in our hats, Jennifer told me she was going to step out and give me a few minutes. Although Scott had been taking pictures, he put his phone down and took my hat off, holding me as tightly as he's ever held me . . . Galations 6:2. Then I turned to the mirror and saw myself . . . bald . . . for the first time. I took a deep breath, stood there for several seconds, wiped my tears away, then smiled as I looked at Scott, and said "well, it's your turn!" :)
Obviously, Scott got his head shaved, getting his Marine Corp look again, and he looked as handsome as ever. Austin got his cut some so he too could participate in the family ritual prior to the beginning of my chemo treatments. He wanted to see me hatless, but one time was enough for him. He politely asked me to keep a cap on . . . and I did :) I even wore a toboggan, featuring the Breast Cancer ribbon, Jennifer gave me to bed last night as my head went from being really warm to a bit cool.
I'm not sure I can walk out my door without a scarf or hat on my head just yet, but I am grateful Scott encouraged me to do it on my own will. I'm reminded of our chaplain at the CTCA when she looked at Scott during our first visit and said," Scott, she's in it to win it" and I replied, "yes ma'am, I am"!
Last Tuesday, before we left the Cancer Treatment Center of America (CTCA) -
Chicago, I had an appointment with a physical therapist (PT). They have been taking measurements in order to monitor any swelling. Thank God I have not experienced any swelling as my doctors took a practical approach to reduce it prior to and after my surgeries and it obviously proved to be successful. The PT also wanted to check the mobility of my arms. I told her it was difficult to get my coat on my left arm. I could only get it 3/4 of the way on, then Scott or Austin would have to get it the rest of the way, over my shoulder. Her first question was "Do you own a cane?" I paused a moment, smiled, and said "Yes . . .yes I do". I did not tell her why, i.e. my stroke. I never thought I would need my black and orange cane, again, yet I knew exactly where it was. So, she left the room to get a cane. We she returned, she was showing me exercises I needed to do prior to my next surgery to ensure I regain full mobility. As she is giving me instructions while I'm completing the various exercises with the cane in hand, I stood there thinking . . .this time last year, I was using a cane to walk. A year later, I will use the same cane for exercises following a bilateral mastectomy and the beginning stage of reconstructive surgery. Amazing . . .
By the way, the PT was wearing a fitted cap on her head, but I could tell she was bald. I asked her as politely as I knew how if she also was a cancer patient. With a beautiful smile on her face, she told me no but her husband had cancer. I asked her how he was doing and maintaining her beautiful smile told me he passed away last year. He was diagnosed with a very rare form of cancer. She keeps her head shaved in his memory. A lump immediately formed in my throat, and my heart broke for her. She proceeded to tell me he too worked at the CTCA - Chicago . . . as a chaplain . . . Galations 6:2.
Anyone who has fought the battle of cancer knows how traumatic it can be, especially women who have fought breast cancer. Well, last night was one more hurdle along our "Pathway to Recovery".
Many of you know after we returned from the CTCA last week Scott encouraged me to be proactive and have my head shaved prior to starting chemo tomorrow. He felt this would empower me to be more proactive and stronger if I chose to not let chemo/cancer take my hair away from me . . . and I did . . . sounds like a good title of a book, huh? :)
We were sitting outside last evening, awaiting Jennifer's arrival, and Scott reminded me that I'm in charge of our "Pathway to Recovery", not the cancer. He told me, as he did from the beginning,"You've already defeated this . . . God's got this . . . you're just going through the process, creating a testimony and many blessings to share with others". He concluded by encouraging me to stay on the offense for the remainder of our pathway, not the defense. After this moment, I didn't think there was anything I couldn't do . . . then, the door bell rang . . .
My dear friend and hair stylist, Jennifer, came over after she finished at her shop. Keep in mind, she is a special friend, but I met her at the front door with mixed emotions. What I didn't know was she too approached the front door with mixed emotions.
Being the friend she is, she brought me a beautiful hat box, filled with a few hats. She especially surprised me with a black beret-like hat, which matched a hat she too had. She wanted to surprise me once this was over . . .you know, so we could look alike . . . at least for a moment :) But the surprise was too good to keep :)
We headed upstairs to the bathroom with Scott right by my side. He too was going to get his head shaved as he was not going to let me do this alone . . . Galations 6:2. So, I sat in the chair, with my back to the mirror. Jennifer told me she had never done this before (to a woman, of course). I hugged her and told her it would be ok. Scott cranked up some music, per our request, and it actually calmed our nerves a bit while Jennifer conjured up the strength she had been searching for to do this. But when the sound of the clippers turned on, it took all I had to fight back the tears until I could not hold them back any longer. They streamed down my face, but Scott was there to catch them, as well as my hair that was falling in my lap, on the floor . . . but I kept praying, knowing this is only temporary and just one more step along our "Pathway to Recovery".
When Jennifer finished, she got the black beret-like hats. She put mine on. Put hers on. Then I turned around. We looked cute and had fun posing for the camera, but I still dreaded seeing what was under my hat.
After we had some laughs in our hats, Jennifer told me she was going to step out and give me a few minutes. Although Scott had been taking pictures, he put his phone down and took my hat off, holding me as tightly as he's ever held me . . . Galations 6:2. Then I turned to the mirror and saw myself . . . bald . . . for the first time. I took a deep breath, stood there for several seconds, wiped my tears away, then smiled as I looked at Scott, and said "well, it's your turn!" :)
Obviously, Scott got his head shaved, getting his Marine Corp look again, and he looked as handsome as ever. Austin got his cut some so he too could participate in the family ritual prior to the beginning of my chemo treatments. He wanted to see me hatless, but one time was enough for him. He politely asked me to keep a cap on . . . and I did :) I even wore a toboggan, featuring the Breast Cancer ribbon, Jennifer gave me to bed last night as my head went from being really warm to a bit cool.
I'm not sure I can walk out my door without a scarf or hat on my head just yet, but I am grateful Scott encouraged me to do it on my own will. I'm reminded of our chaplain at the CTCA when she looked at Scott during our first visit and said," Scott, she's in it to win it" and I replied, "yes ma'am, I am"!
Saturday, October 19, 2013
October 19, 2013 - “Turn your face to the sun and the shadows fall behind you.” - Proverb, Maori
Since we returned home from our last trip to the Cancer Treatment Center of America (CTCA) – Chicago
Tuesday night, I have to admit I have procrastinated in writing this blog
update. Why? Well, it’s been rather emotional to even talk about this week, but
it has gotten easier. Plus, I have to be able to see through my glasses without
tear drops precluding my ability to see the keyboard :)
After the oncologist left the room and his nurse came in,
she, like everyone else there, was so compassionate to both Scott and me. She
provided more information as to what I could expect. And the one thing I
dreaded to hear was I would loose my hair.
As with any battle in life, we have our good days and our
bad days. As I’ve said before, as long as the latter is the exception and not
the rule, it’s ok . . . however, it seems like my mind and emotions continue to
wrestle for control, but I do believe it is important and healthy to release
our emotions and not suppress them. It is also vital we focus on the positives.
I have told several of you my blessings far out weight my battles associated
with breast cancer, and they do :)
Our “Pathway to Recovery” has challenged us in many ways.
Accepting the fact I have breast cancer was probably one of the hardest
challenges. But from the moment I was diagnosed, Scott and I declared I would
be a survivor from the very beginning, and I will!
Ok . . . now that I have reminded myself of a few important
things here is my update from our recent visit this week:
First of all, we had a great time in Chicago
with Austin on
Sunday. We enjoyed a train ride into the city before finding our way to the
midpoint of the Chicago Marathon near the Wilson Tower .
Then we went to the Millennium
Park before we made our
way to the Navy Pier where we took in an architectural tour of the city by
boat, discovered Garrett’s popcorn - yuuuuuuuuuuumy, and had lunch at Harry
Caray’s. Was a great day . . .
On Monday morning, we had breakfast then met with our
surgeon. He was very pleased with the surgery, and felt he got it all. My
margins looked good, but he reminded us there is always that chance a few cells
could be left behind. He also told us my cancer was Stage 1.
We then met with our plastic surgeon. After three weeks to
the day since my surgery, he removed my drains – YAY!! He also added about 100
cc’s of saline into my expanders, which gave me a bit more definition but
created a bit more discomfort. He too was very pleased with the surgery and how
I am healing. The numbness, burning sensation and pain is expected due to the
surgery, as well as the expanders, so I just ensured we got another
prescription of what I refer to as the yellow pills :) When we left his office,
we were scheduled to return in three weeks for my expander fluids.
This appointment was followed by a consultation with a
chaplain, as well as mind and body. Then lunch :)
Next came the long-awaited appointment with our oncologist.
The short of the long of it is, in addition to hormone therapy for the next
five to ten years, I will be having four chemo treatments, one every three
weeks beginning next week. How did this come about?
For those of you who are familiar with breast cancer, you
probably know when they predict the possibility of your cancer returning, they
take the pathology report, as well as your age, health, etc. The report then
tells you if you are at high, low or intermediate risk. Guess where I was? Yep,
intermediate, which meant the decision, was more mine than the doctor’s. So we
discussed and deliberated the short term risks with chemo, as well as the long
term risks. This discussion was not a short conversation but rather lengthy,
yet necessary. After all the information and options were on the table, I
looked at Austin who had fallen asleep in Scott’s lap, and I looked at Scott,
then held his hand . . . tightly, as I began
to cry. Scott knew exactly why I was shedding tears without me saying a word.
Our oncologist stepped out of the room long enough for me to
choke back my tears and try to discuss this with Scott. I told him if I didn’t
do chemo and my cancer came back, I’d never forgive myself. But, if I chose to
do chemo and my cancer came back, I’d have the satisfaction of knowing we
tried. I told Scott I’m 43 and I have too much to live for to not do the chemo,
as I rubbed Austin ’s
head with one hand then took hold of Scott’s hand with the other. He completely
agreed and supported me 100%.
After the oncologist returned, I shared with him my decision
and the reasons why, as they were seated right beside me. He too was
supportive. He said we would only need to do four treatments, one every three
weeks. He also felt I would be able to handle it well. I don’t remember the
names of the two cocktails I will receive but the initials were TC . . . how
ironic is that?
Also, if you remember, after I had an MRI in Johnson City then a biopsy of my left breast in Chicago , a more invasive
tumor was found. Well, during surgery, they discovered another invasive cancer
in my right breast, where my initial cancer was found in a duct. To that end,
LADIES, get your annual mammograms! I am evidence that if you do, breast cancer
can be caught early, despite the fact I have the BRCA2 gene, and a one in
10,000 mutation.
Before we left the room, my plastic surgeon called and
wanted to talk to me as this would change our upcoming plans and appointment.
He too endorsed my decision, which made us feel even better.
So, we will be returning this Thursday, October 24 for my
first treatment. And yes, I am choosing to have my chemo at CTCA. Being a
patient there, they know me, and since it is only once every three weeks, I
felt it was best to continue my treatment there.
As I just mentioned, this will delay the next part of my
reconstructive surgery and hysterectomy (remember, since I have the BRCA2 gene
and the mutation, my chance for ovarian cancer increased dramatically so we’re
going to be proactive to avoid ovarian cancer), but that’s ok . . . once again,
I know we made the right decision.
As several of you know, I had my hair cut really short after
my first surgery when I was hospitalized for two nights, and Scott did his best
to fix my hair. But if you remember, he was fired from that job :) So, my dear
friend and hair stylist, Jennifer, cut it really short so I could shower and go
since I could not get my arms up to dry it or style it. I also actually had the
thought in the back of my mind should I have chemo, there would be less to
loose. So, it wasn’t all about Scott. But I have to brag, since it has grown
out a bit, he has become quite the hair stylist. Jennifer, you might want to
look out! lol
But the other night, we were talking about this subject, and
Scott had the best idea . . . ever. He told me I should be proactive. He
encouraged me to get my head shaved before we go back and not let the cancer
and chemo take it away. And he’s right . . . so before we leave this coming
week, Jennifer is going to shave my head and Scott told me he too would shave
his . . .
So, it’s been a difficult week . . . I have decided the
emotions associated with breast cancer can be one of the greatest challenges in
this battle. But like other battles we fight in this life, you get to a point
where you become stronger and more courageous. Then you put on your armor ready
for the next combat. As a result, I’ve been reminded that I’m in it to win it,
and this is just one more challenge I will overcome and one step closer to
being a survivor.
Joshua 1:9
Thursday, October 17, 2013
Our "Pathway to Recovery": October 17, 2013 - Stories in the Air
Our "Pathway to Recovery": October 17, 2013 - Stories in the Air: I continue to be amazed at the many “Godwinks” along our “Pathway to Recovery”. Last Saturday, after we took off on the plane destined f...
October 17, 2013 - Stories in the Air
I continue to be amazed at the many “Godwinks” along our
“Pathway to Recovery”. Last Saturday, after we took off on the plane destined
for the Cancer Treatment Center of America (CTCA) – Chicago, with Austin in tow :), Scott
began talking to the flight attendant. We were seated in the last row of the
plane near the engines so it made it a little difficult for me to understand
their conversation. The short of the long of it was she was also a cancer
survivor, but her husband, unlike mine, chose not to stay in her life upon
receiving the news . . . I sat there . .
. . in tears . . . literally. But she obviously beat cancer, is doing very well
health wise and has discovered a new-found happiness in her life. I have read
and heard about these stories but never met anyone who has lived out such a
heartbreaking story. Before we departed the plane, Scott shared my blog with
her, and she and Austin
had their picture made together :) By the way, Austin became a big fan of hers when she
snuck him a small can of Pringles :) So, if you are reading this, please know
how much you touched my heart and may God bless you with continued good health
and a lifetime full of happiness . . .
The last time we flew home following my bilateral mastectomy
and the beginning stage of my recovery surgery the flight attendant, who
apparently saw my drains and all our pink, struck up a conversation with Scott
while I was napping. If you haven’t figured it out yet, Scott always has the
aisle seat, and I have the window seat :) I was so exhausted on this return
flight I think I was asleep before we ever took off then slept until it was
time to depart the plane. To that end, Scott did not have a chance to tell me
about his conversation with this flight attendant. Since I was pretty sore and
moving slowly, we purposefully waited in order to be the last ones off the
plane. As I was getting up, very gingerly, the flight attendant told me she too
had had breast cancer and to “hang in there . . . everything would be alright”.
But with the tone in her voice, I knew she too was a fighter. Amazing . . . I
would never guessed it and only wondered how young she was?
Then Tuesday night, after we were seated on the plane, the
lady seated across the aisle from us thought she recognized us. Austin was seated in the
window seat in front of us and assured us at the end of the flight he could now
fly by himself :) She asked Scott if we had been at the CTCA and he replied
yes. Plus, I had not removed my medical arm band yet. She asked if I was a
patient at the CTCA, and Scott told her I was as she was too. She told us she
lived in Knoxville
then Scott reciprocated, telling her we were from Greeneville. Her eyes light
up and said “you’re the ones with the pink pumpkins!” Scott laughed and said,
“Yes we are”. And guess what? Her name is also Susan. She had been at the CTCA
for a little more than five weeks receiving radiation treatments. Her mother
had seen it on the news and sent the link to her so she could see it. Since we
hadn’t taken off yet, I was able to participate in this conversation to a
degree until our wings took flight. Then it wasn’t long my head found its way
to Scott’s shoulder and my eyes managed to found their way closed. Upon loading
the car in front of the terminal, a friend of hers had pulled in behind us so
we too got to meet her. The smiles our pink pumpkins brought to both of them
were very gratifying after my husband only wanted “to do a little something” to
bring a smile to my face.
We all know it’s a small world and we never know who we'll meet and where. But always, keep in mind . . . we also never know the
battles those people who cross are paths are fighting within themselves or have
fought and overcome or are just waiting to share their story with others. I
anxiously await to see who we meet on our next flight!
Wednesday, October 9, 2013
October 9, 2013 - Part II
Several of you who have inquired regarding an update on my
“Pathway to Recovery” . . . thank you :)
As many of you know, I have been home recovering from a
bilateral mastectomy and the beginning stages of reconstructive surgery, which
was performed on Monday, September 23. By the way, September 18 was my one year
anniversary of my stroke-like “event” that left me with very limited use of my
right sight and the inability to say more than a few words at one time. I actually
thought my surgery was going to be scheduled that day, but it wasn’t . . . it
was the day we left for my surgery. Who would have thought? One year later
after my “event” we’d be on a plane, headed to the Cancer Treatment Center of
America in Chicago
for a bilateral mastectomy and beginning stages of reconstructive surgery. But,
praise God for my complete recovery from my “event” – it was nothing less than
a miracle.
Back to the battle at hand, I think I have done
exceptionally well given the path before me. I have been very fortunate and had
mostly good days, but like most, I’ve had my bad days, too. As I’ve told
several of you, as long as that is the rule and not the exception, I think
that’s pretty good when you go through a traumatic experience, such as breast
cancer.
My pain was controlled before I left the Cancer Treatment
Center of America following my surgery, and for the most part, we’ve kept it
controlled to where it is tolerable. I told someone just yesterday, considering
the battle I continue to fight, it has been a wonderful experience. God has
blessed me abundantly during this time – I have so much to be thankful for.
Scott has been nothing less than incredible . . . 24/7. Austin
. . . Austin
may not fully understand it all, but he has become one of my biggest
cheerleaders and a huge advocate for Breast Cancer Awareness (thank you, Scott,
for setting the example). Our close friends have become closer. And the people
who we have crossed paths with, who otherwise we’d never met, Godwinks, I pray
our story of courage inspires, touches and blesses them in an amazing way.
God is good.
We will be leaving this Saturday, returning to Chicago . Since it is Austin ’s fall break next
Monday through Wednesday, he is making the trip with us, and we’re all so
excited! He will get to see the Cancer Treatment Center of America - Chicago,
meet most of our team of doctors, see where we’ve stayed, as well as meet some
of the people who we have met along our way – those Godwinks :) and take in a
little bit of the city while we’re there.
The main purpose of this trip is to have my drains removed –
yipeeeeeee! I will also receive some fluids in my expanders. In addition, I
will meet with my oncologist, surgeons, as well as other members of our team.
Then wrap up my appointments Tuesday morning before returning home Tuesday
evening. I am anxious to know what’s next as part of our “Pathway to Recovery”.
To everyone who has extended a gesture of
thoughtfulness . . . you know who you
are and what you have done to demonstrate your care and support . . . please
know how much it has been appreciated . . . it truly has. Forgive me, but I
have not been able to send my thank you notes as intended. I even bought the
cutest Breast Cancer Awareness note cards . . . I know everyone understands,
but my mother would be so disappointed in me :(
Once again, please pray for uneventful and safe travels to
and from Chicago
and continue to lift us up in prayer, as we too will remember you. I believe
God hears our prayers, and He has the power to heal and work miracles.
Before I close, I must share . . . Austin just be-bopped around the corner and
asked what I was doing. I told him I was updating my blog. He said, “be sure
and tell everybody you’re doing ok so they won’t worry about you” . . . enough
said :)
Deuteronomy 31:6
October 9, 2013 - Part I
In my last blog I posted on October 1, I mentioned my plans
to do something this month in support of Breast Cancer Awareness Month. Well,
in addition to joining Melinda Hickerson’s challenge to encourage everyone to
wear pink every day this month, and yes, our family has so far managed to meet
that challenge, plus my husband came up with a really neat and cute idea. The “Three
P Challenge” – Paint a Pumpkin Pink.
As you’ve probably seen photos on my Facebook page, Scott
surprised me last Friday afternoon with a beautiful, fall decoration in our
front yard, complete with pink pumpkins to honor me and in support of Breast
Cancer Awareness Month. As a result, it has garnered a lot of deserving
attention locally and throughout East Tennessee
as he worked very meticulously to ensure the utmost perfection of this project
. . . and he did. A picture of it even won the Pal’s Photo in a Flash last evening
on WJHL TV 11! Reminds, me . . . we need to go get his winning coffee mug!
So, I too encourage you to take on the “Three P Challenge”
and send us your pictures by posting them on Susan’s Circle of Courage page on
Facebook! If you haven’t liked my page yet, please do so, as I want to be aware
of all of our friends and family who are supporting us in various ways during
our “Pathway to Recovery”. After we tried to create Susan’s Cancer Fighters
using a blog, it didn’t work out as easy as I had thought. So, we created
Susan’s Circle of Courage on Facebook and it has seemed to work much better
plus Scott continues to remind me how much courage it takes to be courageous.
And to those of you not on Facebook who have notified us you want to be a part
of the “circle”, please know you are included, and we appreciate all of you
very much!
By the way, do you know what tomorrow is? Yes, it’s
Thursday. And yes, it is Brett Favre’s birthday. But more importantly, it is our
two-month anniversary! Two months ago, Scott and I were united in holy
matrimony at sunset on the beautiful Wrightsville
Beach in Wilmington ,
NC with Austin
and our best friends by our side. After having my deserving meltdown days
before we left from the traumatic news, I even contemplated whether or not we
should still get married or postpone the wedding. But then I regrouped. The
wedding was on as planned! We were going to enjoy our time together at the
beach as a family then later with our dearest friends while our fairy tale
wedding played out just like a movie . . . and that’s just what happened.
We lived every moment to the fullest, from the time our toes
hit the sand the first of the week, until a white, stretch limo took us, separately,
of course . . . the boys, then the girls and Austin, to the entryway of our
storybook wedding. We never imagined our grand entrance would have been in
front of not only our cherished friends but to a surprisingly show of hundreds
of strangers gathered all around who were apparently enamored by the colorful
display of the military regime. Yet, only four of the guests in addition to
Scott, Austin and me, knew the battle awaiting us upon our return as Mr. and
Mrs. Scott Teague.
After we returned, Scott contacted his dear friend and
fellow comrade First Sergeant Ken Pike to share the news about my breast
cancer. First Sgt. Pike, who lives in Wilmington , had been the
go-to man during the planning of the wedding. When I thought about doing this
or that as part of the wedding, Scott would call First Sgt. Pike, and it was
done. First Sgt. Pike could not believe I had been diagnosed with breast cancer
just days before we left as I couldn’t have been any more radiant and happy as
I was on the evening of August 10. He also commended Scott for staying with me
as others would have bolted under the remarkable transformation of
circumstances. Scott assured him he didn’t bolt; he stuck.
Two months later a lot has happened, but I am grateful to
God for giving me Scott . . . my soul mate, my best friend . . . my super glue!
He has been by my side through it all, along our “Pathway to Recovery”. At
times, he’s been in front of me, pulling me through, and sometimes behind me,
pushing me in the right direction. We’ve laughed. We’ve cried. Whatever the
emotion is at any given moment, we share it together. He has brought to my life
so much love, joy and contentment and to Austin ’s,
as well. Even though we’ve only known each other since the end of February . .
. that’s what? Not even eight months ago? I feel like I’ve known him forever.
So, in honor of our two month anniversary tomorrow, I reeeeeally
encourage you to wear pink :), even if it’s only a splash, i.e. lapel pin,
paint your nails, etc., and think about two people who have recently inspired
you and let them know. Today, I posted on the Cancer Treatment Center of
America’s Facebook page as they too asked readers to acknowledge someone who
had inspired them this week. I listed four :) They included Jennifer Tipton and
Jeana Helton, who I had the pleasure to officially meet on Sunday, plus Scott
and Austin :)
You don’t have to post on my blog or FB page who they are, but at least let
those people know who they are and they have inspired you.
Remember, to be inspired motivates us to achieve what we
thought was unattainable and it helps us to not only dream but dream big. Because
of all the inspiration I am receiving during the most difficult time in life, I
know I am going to beat breast cancer because my inspirers remind me . . . I’m
in it to win it!
P.S. It’s going to be a beautiful weekend to take on the
“Three P Challenge” and Paint a Pumpkin Pink!
Tuesday, October 1, 2013
Today is October 1 . . . the first day of Breast Cancer
Awareness Month. Like many of you, it has now taken on an entire new meaning
for me. As you probably know, I’ve always been one who is inspired with
positive quotes, I “love inspirational quotes”, which I like to share with
others. When I created my Facebook account in the spring of 2012, my main
purpose was to utilize my page to promote my book, “Only to Susan”. But it has
also allowed me to communicate with friends, hopefully offering them some encouragement
and inspiration by sharing quotes words of support. I also love to “share”
recipes as that’s the only way I know how to keep them on my page. And no, I
don’t cook or intend to fix any of them, but Scott is a great chef so I keep
hoping he or some of my friends might pick up on a few of my hints :)
Back to October, I have been thinking what I can do this
month to promote Breast Cancer Awareness. I have a few ideas so keep a check on
my blog as I continue to ponder what that is going to be :)
In the meantime, I am continuing to recover exceptionally
well from my bilateral mastectomy and the beginning of my reconstructive surgery.
For those of you who have followed my posts on Facebook know last Monday
evening after my surgery was a painful and uncomfortable time until the nurses
and doctors were able to get it under control. I held tightly to two of Scott’s
fingers, apparently refusing to let go. I was in a unit that is a step down
from ICU so they were in there continuously checking my vitals and giving me
various medicines in an effort to control my pain . . . and they did.
Scott nor I slept very well, which is to be expected. One
nurse would even come in the room with a flashlight in an effort to not wake us
up as they continued to keep a close eye on me throughout the night.
The next morning I woke up feeling ok. Surprisingly ok. Scott
genuinely kept telling me how much better I looked and responded than when I
had the lymph nodes removed a few weeks prior. Although I was continuing to
take pain medication, I was pretty alert. A physical therapist assisted in
getting me out of bed for the first time to walk me, which I was not looking
forward to, but I did ok. I was able to eat some and sit up in the chair with
little discomfort.
When my plastic surgeon came back to check on me, he was
very pleased with my progress and told me if I’d like I could be discharged later
that afternoon to guest quarters, which is their hotel on site. And if I got
along ok on my/our own that night and the next morning, I could go home. My
eyes immediately flooded with tears. The thought of going home so soon since
the surgery was simply overwhelming, but that’s what God can do. Remember, we
had been there since the Wednesday prior to my surgery as I had additional
appointments, as well as my pre-op appointments. We were told the best case
scenario was probably to return home on Friday.
We owe the Cancer Treatment Center of America a special
thank you for giving us a card, indicating I was a cancer patient with multiple
drains as it made our way through security at the airport a surprisingly, satisfying
experience. The airport was also very accommodating as a young gentleman met us
upon arrival with a wheelchair so I didn’t have to walk and remained with us
until we arrived at our gate. Since we had about a 40 minute wait, Scott
wheeled me into the Chicago Cubs Bar and Grill. We have eaten there the last
two times before heading head and even though our circumstances were different
this time, we made no exception in an effort to continue our tradition.
At the gate, they allowed us to board the plane first and our flight was very smooth, although according to Scott, I slept most of the way home. I did, however, wake up and have to use the rest room. Thank God our seats were toward the back of the plane but navigating in those close quarters with my drains and soreness was a bit of a challenge yet I managed pretty well.
Upon arriving at the airport in Knoxville , we waited until everyone departed
the plane. Ironically, the flight attendant had had a bilateral mastectomy. She
assured me I would be fine despite the soreness and pain I was tolerating as it
was time for a pain pill – yay! They too had a wheelchair waiting on us as we
got off the plane. By the time we arrived at the luggage carousel, our suitcase
had made its way down. With one hand, Scott was pushing me in the wheelchair
and pulling our suitcase with his other hand.
As I waited for Scott to get the car, I waited with much
anticipation to arrive home to see Austin
and to sleep in our bed . . . in our house. I also sat there thanking God for
His mercy and goodness and all of His many blessings He had so graciously
provided us during this journey. I sat there in awe of His glory . . .
After Scott got everything loaded in the car, including me,
we were off . . . the final leg of our expedition . . . destination 505 Rayley
Court, Greeneville, TN 37745 (sorry, but
I love the sound of that as many of you know how much I love living in the city
now :)
Upon our arrival, I didn’t know Austin ’s arms could stretch as far as they
did. He has been incredible. I can only try to imagine how difficult this has
been on him but he too has become quite an advocate. In addition, much like,
Scott, he does a lot of things around the house without being asked. And when
asked, we receive a “yes sir” or “yes ma’am”. Austin is a very loving child with a big
heart and when I feel like crawling in bed and pulling the covers over my end
and giving up, I think of him, and Scott, and my whole outlook changes. God has
blessed me with the family I’ve always wanted. By the way, Austin even pulled a tooth out this week . .
. by himself and this was not the first tie he had done so.
Tomorrow will be one week since we arrived, and in our
opinion, my recovery has gone exceptionally well. I still have a long road
ahead of me, but I’m taking it one step at a time. Scott has been phenomenal.
He even told me if he was younger he’d go back to school to become a nurse. He
is so patient, compassionate, never, ever complains and is always a step ahead
of me, i.e. he has a glass of water for me before I ask for it. He truly was
God sent and as my “big sis” Debbie said in her toast at our wedding dinner
he’s the “best thing that’s happened to Susan since Austin ”.
Our net step? We will return to the Cancer Treatment Center of America (by the way, a commercial for them was just on GAC :), no later than October 14 as that will be three weeks after my surgery and my plastic surgeon does not want to leave my drains in any longer than three weeks. Should the out put of my drains reach the desired level over a 24 hour period prior to October 14 then our return trip could be sooner. At that visit, in addition to my drains being removed, I will have additional fluid injected into my expanders, plus I will see my oncologist and surgeon. So that trip should not be a long one.
In the meantime, please continue to life us up in prayer as we will remember
you . . . we are better together!
Isaiah 43:2 God says...When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when
you walk through the fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not
consume you. – thank you Christie Ward for sharing this scripture.
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